Obviously, I’m not very happy with my blog’s layout (hate the orange words, I want them to be pink), but I haven’t gotten round to changing it because the last few days, I was either sick or busy. Monday, supposed to meet up with the new block&vice-head, but I was almost totally out cold. Fever, flu, and an awful ulcer on my tongue to make things worst. But, I trust that they’ll choose the best out of the new batch. Afterall, they know the new batch better than me cause I was in Cambodia while they were having the camps and things like that. I’m not washing my hands off the matter, I just feel that they know better. Afterall, how am I supposed to evaluate people that I’ve never seen before? I know people will have other opinions (especially those people who have been talking about me since treasuresintheattic), but I don’t really care.
Yesterday, I had to travel half the bloody country just to send my camera to the ultra secluded place to get it fixed because the touchscreen wasn’t working. Lucky for me, I have my old camera on standby because tonight, I’m meeting Yan and Nic for dinner! It’s birthday celebration time, though my birthday doesn’t happen till next week. But yeah, this year, birthday came early for me. I’ve had like 3 Flaming Lamborghinis & 2 Jägerbombs as presents from strangers, nonetheless. Plus an awesome Prada wallet from my sister. Okay, but that’s enough bragging for one post. I’m still pissed that I had to travel half the country, but I’m glad that it’ll be back in my hands before my birthday. (: awesomeness max.
So yes, there’s no time for the blog layout change whatchamacallit.
Last week, I met and had a very different experience with a guy I met at the club. Obviously his name is not going to be here, but let’s just say that he’s not the average age of people that I deal with. Slightly older than the norm (but definitely under 30, I think guys over 30 just seems to be too “father-like” for me), I still felt that we could communicate (in fact, that whole bunch of friends were easy to talk to, especially when they were high) which was a nice experience because usually, people in the club don’t communicate, they drunk talk. Not that I’m complaining here, but it was just different. For the first time, someone thought that I was “too nice” a girl and didn’t take advantage of the fact that I was alone, high on alcohol and without any of my friends with me (because they went home early). I guess, that was a whole new experience, though that guy that I met was obviously my type of guy. Gosh. I’d kill just to date him.
But right here, right now, I’m not looking for anything serious. Firstly cause I just broke up with R about 2 months ago before leaving for Cambodia and I don’t think anything serious will work out now. Secondly, I just wanna be by myself for a while because I feel a very tough and emotional period coming up soon. It’s those kind of times where I’ll be so weak, I’ll push everyone away from me. Yes, including you the person who is already starting to be concerned while reading this.
If you have me on facebook/twitter/tumblr, you’ll know that I’m dying to run/dance/jump and do all the things that I love doing. But, at this current moment, I’m unable to dance or run at all. Even walking can be an excruciating chore at times (yes, I still go out with my friends quite a bit, but that doesn’t mean I’m not dying inside from wanting to cry out in pain) and I’m supposed to schedule an operation sometime soon (but, obviously, I’m not going to just yet because I’m still waiting to see if there’s going to be any other options available to me).
Right Here, Right Now, I just wanna be with the people who care. f- the people who don’t. and just live my life like there’s no tomorrow (because, there might not be.) Tonight, I’m gonna be celebrating an early birthday and then meeting my girls to burn up the floor at ButterFac. It’s something I need before I start forgetting how it feels like to be on a dancefloor. When I get better, I’m going to run like there’s no tomorrow, I’m gonna take up Salsa/Exotic Dance/Contemporary Jazz. I’ve got plans, and I’m planning to make them come true.